...will go wrong.
Monday morning I checked into the hospital for a routine in/out surgery. Due to issues I've been having, I was having an endometrial ablation done, in an attempt to fix them.
Well, the very first, uncommon risk listed, for this surgery, is "Accidental puncture (perforation) of the uterus. " Wouldn't ya know...it happened to me.
I was having panic attacks all day, on Sunday. Everyone laughed at me and told me I had nothing to worry about. I didn't know what my issue was...I've had plenty of surgeries before and I knew what to expect.
Monday morning, Josh dropped me off at the hospital and my friend Nikki met me there. We couldn't find anyone that could watch the kids, so Nikki was going to be with me and then drive me home. We had fun convincing the nurses that we were sisters, (one nurse even said, "I can see the similarities!") and laughing at the pants they gave me, that could have fit both of us, at the same time.
After a couple hours, they took me back and the last thing I remember is the anesthesiologist asking me if I was feeling the medication yet. I woke up, hearing the nurse say my name and feeling myself be extubated. Ouch! My poor throat got scratched!
They brought me back to recovery and Nikki hung out with me, while I apparently kept repeating myself, over and over. :) She asked me if the doctor talked to me yet and I told her no. Something triggered in my drugged mind that something was wrong, but I let it go. I had noticed that my 45 minute surgery ended up taking close to 2 hours, but I wasn't awake enough to ask why, yet.
About an hour later, Nikki decided I was awake enough to tell me. First, she told me that she's already notified Josh and he was on his way in. Then, she told me that my doctor came out after my surgery and pulled her into a conference room. He explained that my uterus is tipped forward and was unexpectedly rigid. When they inserted the NovaSure instrument, instead of following the natural curve of the inside of my uterus, it perforated the posterior side. They had to abort the procedure, because the risk of damaging my other organs was too great. They watched me for the next few hours, to be sure that there was no internal bleeding.
When my doctor came in, he explained it in greater detail and explained my options. We needed to allow my body to heal for a couple weeks, but then we had two choices. We could attempt the ablation again, but this time after taking some medication the night before, to help soften my cervix. However, he warned that because of the angle of my uterus and the fact that it had been perforated before, the chance of it happening again, was high. The other option was a hysterectomy. He would be leaving my ovaries, negating my need for hormone replacement therapy, but this would for sure solve my issues that drove me to the surgery, in the first place.
So, after discussing it with Josh and doing a little research, it looks like I'll be planning a hysterectomy. I still have a lot of questions for my doctor and I'm incredibly nervous and scared, but I think the benefits outweigh the costs.
I've come to the conclusion that my life can't ever be smooth sailing and without stress. But...I just have to be thankful that this is happening after we had already decided that our family is complete. I'm thankful that I was able to carry and deliver five beautiful, perfect children. I can't ask for more, than that.