Friday, April 3, 2009
I'm A Survivor
It's amazing to me, how much life can change in one year.
One year ago today, I ventured into a depth of hell that no woman should ever have to experience. That was the day that denial would no longer be my protection and I had to accept the fact that our baby had died. I have never cried so many tears, than I did in the days leading up to the D&C. I never knew, until that day, that one can literally feel their heart break and it is the worst pain in the world. I had never known that there was a pain so deep and so raw, that no medicine could touch it.
I never would have guess that one year later I would be holding another baby. Presley is more than a preemie miracle...she is the angel that saved me. She was sent to heal me from the wounds that no one could see.
While I still wonder about my unborn child and even sometimes shed a few tears for a life that never got to be, I have healed. I look forward to that glorious day in Heaven when my little one will grab me by the hand and answer all the questions in my heart.
Until then, I will know how very special I am, to be the Mommy of an angel. Mommies of angels are incredible people. Only when you are the Mommy of an angel, can you truly understand the miracle of life and pure love. It takes a special woman...to love a soul...that she never got to meet.