Saturday, February 14, 2009
My Rainbow Baby
I have heard the term "rainbow baby" before, but never understood what it was. Once I found out the meaning behind the term, I realized how very precious "rainbow babies" are and that I have one!
A rainbow baby, is a baby that comes after a loss. That loss could be a miscarriage, still birth or death of a child. These special children are like rainbows...after a storm.
My miscarriage was one of the biggest storms of my life. I remember feeling like I would never get over the loss of that little baby that we tried so hard to conceive. While I don't think I will ever "get over it", I have healed.
Finding out we were pregnant again, so soon after losing our baby, was extremely hard, yet a blessing. I worried every single day that I would lose this baby, too. The first time I saw Presley's heartbeat, I allowed myself to become attached. That made it so much harder, because I worried that if we lost her now...I'd never recover.
Thankfully, she was born perfectly healthy, although seven weeks early. She must have known how badly I needed her in my arms. My beautiful girl is worth weathering through any storm.