Wednesday, October 29, 2008
There is NO better feeling in the world than your kids RUNNING to you, yelling, "MOMMY'S HOME!" and wanting hugs and kisses.
Oh, my goodness...I am so happy!
And tired! I think I'll try for a nap.
Thank you all, for everything!
My fetal fibronectin test came back negative...indicating that it is 95% likely that she will not be born in the next two weeks. YAY!
We got to have an ultrasound and she is beautiful! I got to see her blink her eyes and stick out her tongue. I cannot wait to hold her in my arms...in at least 8 more weeks! It was good that an actual ultrasound tech did the ultrasound, compared to the OB resident that did one yesterday. The tech shows that she is only measuring about 3 DAYS ahead, not 3 WEEKS. She estimated Presley's weight at about 3 lbs. 9 oz., which is still good. She's over 3 lbs...the tech indicated that is good.
I have now been moved upstairs which comes with a lot of benefits. I got to shower (ohhh....hot water and soap have never felt so good), I got to eat breakfast, I don't have to be monitored 24/7 (no straps around my belly...they can be painful!), my IV is capped off, I have a comfy bed and my CNA is someone that I took my CNA class with...always nice to see a friendly face!
Update: It's noon and the OB resident just informed me that they are letting me go home! I am on strict bedrest, with only bathroom privileges until at least Tuesday, when I go see my doctor. I'll keep up on the same meds that I'm on here. I know it's what Presley needs, but it's going to be really hard to do that. I cannot stand to have other people wait on me. I don't like to feel useless. But, I am excited to get some sleep!
Thank you so much, to everyone that has prayed for us and wished us well. It really means a lot to me and my family, at this time. I'll keep updating as things develop.
Or don't develop....hopefully.
Update: It's 6:30 am. I have been contracting every 2-4 minutes for about two hours. The meds aren't stopping this round so far. Your prayers would be appreciated.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Yesterday around 3 o'clock I noticed that my sporadic braxton hicks had turned rather regular, about 8 minutes apart and were feeling different. I dealt with it until about 5 o'clock when I put a call in to the doc. Given my history, he suggested that I at least go to L & D and get checked out.
We arrived at LDS hospital about 6:30 and got checked in. After a sterile spec exam (ow!) and a catheter (OW!), blood drawn and cervical check, we found that I was not dilated at all, am anemic and have a possible urinary tract infection. They found 5 white blood cells in my urine, which is borderline, so they are growing it out to see what happens.
So, after a nice shot of morphine and phenergan in my bum (now there's a visual that will haunt you), I laid there and felt loopy, but was still contracting every 2-4 minutes. Fast forward to about 10 o'clock and they checked me again. I still wasn't dilated, but my cervix had moved further into the birth canal and was very soft. So, they started betametazone (steroids to help develop her lungs faster) and Indocine and Nifedipine (anti-labor drugs - that I hope I've spelled right).
About 2 o'clock this morning, the OB on call came in and checked me, since my contractions hadn't really improved. At this point I was definitely dilated to a one. LDS hospital's NICU can only handle babies that are 32 weeks and older. At that point, they decided that it was too much of a risk to have me there and contacted an ambulance to bring me to the new IMC, since they are better equipped to dealing with a 29 w 5 d baby.
After a fantastically bumpy ambulance ride, I was greeted by a bunch of resident doctors that don't look old enough to be out of high school. (Holy crap, I am getting old.) They decided to run a couple of the tests again, such as the sterile spec exam (ow!). She noticed some fluid and asked me if my water had broken. I told her that I hadn't noticed, if it had. So, they checked out the fluid and it had some of the telltale "ferning" indicating that it was amniotic fluid. The only problem with that, is that I'd had my cervix checked three times already and the lubricant they use contains salt...which could also cause that "ferning" pattern. They decided to leave me alone today (hallelujah!) and they would re-run the test tonight to see if they still get the same results. I'll be shocked, because I haven't noticed any increase in fluid at all.
They did an ultrasound to check her fluid levels and do measurements on her. She appears to have plenty of fluid and is measuring big! I am 29 w 5 days and she is measuring 32 w 5 days and already about 4 lbs. There is no way she could have been conceived 3 weeks earlier...I was still pregnant with our angel baby then and hadn't had my D&C yet. I know that there is room for margin of error, but I'm happy to see that she is measuring on the big side, and not the little.
That brings me to now...I take one of the anti-labor drugs every 4 hours and the other every 6. The contractions have been off and on today, so I'm hopeful. I know the best place for her is in me. There is no man-made incubator, that compares to Mommy's uterus.
So, here we are. Watching and waiting...
Monday, October 27, 2008
My friend's name is....SLEEP.
I didn't fall asleep until 6:00 this morning. Between braxton hicks, the need to pee every time I blink, a baby girl that is practicing for the New York City Ballet Company, a pelvis already damaged by four previous kids and this annoying need to breath (which she is making very difficult) - I am not sleeping well.
I do a beautiful dance titled "Me And My Five Pillows"... shove them here... shove them there... prop this... prop that... and still...cannot get comfortable. It's getting quite old and with 10 weeks to go, I'm just hoping I survive.
I even thought to myself, "Oh, I wish she would just be born already!" Then, I come to my senses and know that even the little bit of sleep I'm getting now, is way more than I will get pulling all nighters in the hard rocking chairs at PCMC, next to a very sick little baby, again. (Ignore the run-on sentence...I'm tired, ya know?)
So, I'd like to do a fundraiser...or a sleepraiser, if you will. If everyone would dedicate just one hour of sleep to me, or one mid-day nap, I'd greatly appreciate it. Thanks for your help!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Ignore the tired look on my face...it's a permanent symptom of the third trimester! :)
The kids had a blast running through the fields to find their pumpkin. They were quite picky! It had to be the perfect one, and they weren't going to settle for anything less.
My beautiful pumpkin patch.
Avery: "Did you know that when you're naughty, your belly gets big?"
Me: (thinking....hmmm....where's this going?) "Oh, yeah? Why is that?"
Avery: "Like that girl that got big and blue. She was naughty."
Me: (chuckling...starting to understand) "Oh, the girl that turned into the blueberry on Charlie and the Chocolate Factory?"
Avery: "Yeah, she was naughty."
Me: "So, Mommy's belly is big...am I naughty?"
Avery: "No, you not naughty!"
Me: "Well, if my belly is big, I must have done something...what did I do?"
Avery: "Daddy is naughty."
Me: (laughing to myself and wishing someone else was around to laugh with me, at the joke she didn't know she just made) "Oh, why is Daddy naughty?"
Avery: "He painted on the wall." (We just painted our hallway.)
Me: "So, because Daddy was naughty....my belly got big?"
LOL....if only she knew! :)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I discovered what it really is. Apparently "Princess Presley" is some barely legal girl that bares all on the Internet. Naughty pics. Web cam. The whole enchilada.
Well, MY Princess Presley will be far cuter than her....and (aside from the few minutes after birth) will know how to keep her damn clothes on!
So, if you are looking at my page for naughty pictures...all you will find is the destruction of my home at the hands of my children. Spreading an entire bottle of baby powder all over the front room and my computer...is as naughty as it gets around here!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
I have hypothyroidism, but I don't let it hold me back
I am a compulsive organizer
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I can't wait to pin this big one on a little headband and do some pics with Presley.
This ribbon is so cute....but I'm so mad! I bought this roll, got it home and discovered that someone had already opened it, used a bunch and then returned the rest. So, I was supposed to get 9 yds and got about 1 1/2 yds. I only had enough to make these two bows. Stupid Wally World will take anything back as a return and then put it back on the shelf.
All in all, not a bad attempt. I'll keep getting better!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Everyone was holding their breath....as he read the letter...
...and we found out he is going to:
He has to arrive at the MTC on January 14, 2009, so I promised him that Presley would be out in plenty of time for him to meet her.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I have found one website that has step by step instructions and it seems to be pretty easy, but there has to be more out there. I also found a million websites where Mom's sell the bows (but I wanna make my own) or they sell the instructions (I won't pay for them when I know they are available for free).
So, anyone know any good websites detailing how to make bows or headbands? Have any tips about the process?
Monday, October 13, 2008
She got this panicked look on her face and RAN upstairs and immediately made her bed. Josh and I had a great laugh over it and forgot about it.
That was 5 days ago.
She has not set foot out of her room since then, without her bed being made. Even when she goes to bed at night, she c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y slides under the covers and freaks out if it gets messed up at all.
She even walks around the house and randomly says, "The cops aren't gonna get me, huh, Momma?" ("No, Avery. The cops aren't going to get you.")
Her sisters have caught on and they threaten it with her now...if I reprimand her for anything (like unbuckling in the car, or not going to bed and staying there), they'll pipe up with a, "Mom's gonna call the cops!" She IMMEDIATELY corrects her behavior and looks panicked until she knows that I'm not really calling them.
I won't threaten her with it, because it just seems wrong to make her scared, but I will admit...it has been nice! Before you judge me, remember that this is the child that did this and this and this and this and this (oh yeah...THAT was a good one!) and this and this and this and this and this...are you seeing a pattern? :)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I blogged about it last time, too! :)
It's been one day shy of 9 months.
Leave it to Avery though - during the blessing of a baby, when everyone is quiet and reverent and peaceful - she pipes up with "Hey! I think somebody farted!"
There's a special place in heaven for that little one...
Casey is such a special man. He has been there for me through all of my life's changes and nothing could ever replace him. The day that he called me, three years ago and said, "Well, I wanted to tell you in person...but...I have cancer.", was a day I will never forget. Thankfully, he pulled through and is doing fantastic now.
When he met Jen, I saw such a change in him. He has never been happier, then he is now. When he smiles, you can just see it fill his whole face. He got a bonus, when he got Jen, he also got a six year old daughter, Kylee. She is absolutely adorable and I love the way that he is with her.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Today is a bonus. Tomorrow will be a bonus. Every day from this very moment...is a bonus.
On October 9, 2007, my family's life changed forever. This was the day that Mom's doctors told us that she had one year to live.
We were devastated. One year is not enough time to say all the things that you want to say, do all the things that you want to do, or say "I love you", enough times. It is not enough time to watch your Mom hold your kids and know that she loves them as much as you do.
In the past year, it has been an emotional roller coaster of ups and downs. Some appointments were good. Some appointments were bad. Some appointments were really bad. There have been good days and there have been bad days. I don't think any of us will really know how many bad days there have been, because Mom would never admit it to anyone.
With that said...(drum roll, please!)...Mom's latest scan results:
CT scans were done in May, July and September of her liver, lungs, stomach, lower abdomen and bones. The May to July scans were bad. Scary bad. The chemo she had been on was no longer working and the tumors were growing again. Mom is so active and so rarely "down", that it was hard to be thrust back in to the reality of her situation again.
They put her on some new chemo and then re-did the scans in September. This time, the tumors in her lungs and liver are showing significant shrinkage, or have disappeared completely. The tumors in her bones still remain the exact same - but that does mean that they aren't growing. We were SO happy to get this news! It really improved Mom's outlook and we are just praying things continue to improve. Mom is even gearing up for a 7 day cruise with her sister, in a few weeks. Something that we never thought she'd be able to do.
So, I share with you a few of my favorite photos over the last year.
Mom - Your strength impresses us every day. We fall asleep every day so grateful for you and all that you do. We know there are so many days that we couldn't make it though, without your love and help. We love you so much!
Sure, it can't be something remotely cute. Nope. Has to be a pic of me from the day I shaved my head. See the date? It's almost been a year! Crazy.
Don't know why I shaved my head? Well, check back...I'm working on a really important post right now.
Anyone else wanna play along?
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I don't know where she comes up with this stuff.
A friend's wedding is coming up and I thought how nice it would be to go buy a new dress. I didn't have time to drive to a Motherhood, so we just tried a few stores that were close to the area we were in. (Keep in mind, that during this shopping trip I am tired, my hips hurt and I'm just plain not in the mood to go wandering all over the Salt Lake valley.)
So, we stop at Kohl's. After much walking through the store and searching the Misses section AND the Women's section....we ask someone where
Their selection? One freaking maternity dress (too short) and no maternity skirts. Are you freaking kidding me?
We hop over to Sears Grand. As soon as we enter we hear, "Shoppers, it is now 8:45 and we are closing. Please bring your purchases to the front, so we can check you out quickly." Aaah! I proceed to run
"Excuse me, where is your maternity section?" I ask the worker girl who looks barely old enough to pop a zit.
"Oh...(giggle)...we don't have maternity clothes."
*Me giving her a dumb look*
"What am I? A leper?" I mumble as I walk
I got quite the giggle today. I witnessed one of "those Moms"....you know the kind....always show up at your kids' school with the perfect clothes and the perfect hair and stand in their own little groups with their backs to you....digging out a booger, while waiting at the stop sign.
It might have been wrong...but I laughed.
she saw me.
Because I'm prepping to go to nursing school and really want to be in labor and delivery...I seek out information on that subject. Having gone through four of my own pregnancies (now five) and a miscarriage, with a myriad of their own problems, I have learned a lot. I also love reading anything to do with labor and delivery, love watching the multiple shows on Discovery Health and I pick the brains of the poor nurses assigned to me whenever I land myself in the antepartum unit. (Hospital bed rest...for those of you lucky enough to have avoided it.)
So, with my knowledge and experience combined, I sometimes stress about little things...knowing that they can be symptoms for big problems. Last night I was sitting on the floor playing a game, when I realized that my feet were starting to swell up. It seemed to come on pretty quick - I hadn't noticed it through out the day. By the time I noticed, I had that tight "skin stretching" feeling. I normally only swell when I've been really active, so it concerned me that it happened while I was relaxing.
So, out comes my equipment and I proceed to take my blood pressure...just to see. I had just been to the doc the day before and had a BP of 96/65 and that was after a little walking around. My blood pressure has actually been fantastic this entire pregnancy, so I wasn't prepared for a reading of 130/89. WTH?
I got some water, thinking possibly just some dehydration (though I pee every 45 minutes, so who knows how that's possible) and continued playing my game. (All the while, nervous that I'm developing preeclampsia.)
About half an hour later...back contractions started, about 4 minutes apart, lasting 35-50 seconds. I gave up on my game at that point, went up to bed, swallowed two Tylenol with another glass of water and waited....
and contemplated calling the doctor...
So, the swelling has gone down today, contractions are irregular and I'm trying to take it easy. As easy as one can...in this house. :)
At the end of it all, we all get stocked freezers with beef that we have raised - so we know what they've been fed. The meat is incredibly lean, compared to what you'd buy in the store and it ends up being much cheaper.
Here's to t-bone steaks and Sunday roasts! :)
So, add a little dinner and dessert, with a WHOLE lot of enlightening conversation, a fantastic movie and my girls....what do you get? The perfect remedy after a long week!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Weight Gain : 1.2 lbs totaling 9 lbs
Glucose Test: Normal
Anemia Test: Normal
Seriously? Wow...I've never hoped to be anemic so much in my life! I've been so freaking tired!
It's so strange to think that when I see the doc again in 2 weeks, I will be in the 3rd trimester. We still have Halloween, Thanksgiving, the month of December and all the fun stuff planned and Christmas to do...before she comes. When I think about it that way, it makes me realize how quickly her birth is coming!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
What were you doing 10 years ago?
Ten years ago I was 17 years old. I had just started my senior year of high school, had just gone on my first date with my husband (who would have thought?) and dancing was my life. I worked 2 jobs, was involved in FHA and YCC and was on my high school drill team.
5 Things on my to do list today:
1. Keep the house picked up
2. Catch up my blogging
3. Get some reports done for work
5. Perhaps a hot bath after the munchkins are in bed
My favorite treats: cheese bread, spray whip cream - straight out of the can, gummy bears, watermelon, vanilla diet coke, Cafe Rio chicken salad, key lime cheesecake, Rumbi's soup and salad, chocolate covered cinnamon bears (when Lacey hasn't bought them all).
3 bad habits (or things I would change about myself)
1. I jump to conclusions rather quickly.
2. I beat myself up over certain things, too often.
3. I am ruled by my emotions.
If I were suddenly a billionaire, I would:
set up all my kids college funds, build a new home here and on the east coast, share it with those I love, buy a newlywed couple a home (strangers...not someone I know) - just because it would be fun and finish school (yes, I still would).
Places I have lived:
N. Billerica, MA - Lowell, MA - W. Jordan, UT - Grantsville, UT - Salt Lake City, UT - Tooele, UT - Lake Point, UT - Stansbury Park, UT - My current home
Jobs I've had:
Newspaper girl, Nettie's (local fast food place), Soelberg's (local grocery store), McDonald's, Discover Financial Services, Castle Inspection Services
5 things most people don't know about me...
1. I read really fast. Like, annoyingly fast. (Annoying to me, I mean) I can easily finish a book in a day. I hate it, because I'm always on the hunt for a new book. I will purposely drag out a really good book...just because I hate to see it end.
2. "One of my greatest pet peeves is dumb debaters. If you are going to start a argument about ANYTHING know your background before you stake a claim. You make yourself look like a real dope when you start a fight and can't even back it up with facts." (I completely stole this quote from Lacey...but I agree!)
3. I never imagined I'd have a huge family. I came into this marriage wanting three kids. Lucky for me, Josh talked me in to Luke and Presley!
4. I have mellowed out a lot, in the last 10 years. I used to be one of those people that couldn't go to bed, if there were dirty dishes in the sink. Now, I'm just happy to be going to bed!
5. I HATE belly buttons. I cannot touch them (mine or anyone else's). They make me gag. I hate to see them, I hate when other people touch their own - just to see me flinch...I hate them.
5 people I would like to tag are... Cassie, Steph, Natalie, Jamie and Erin (I love you all, but I tried to pick people I don't know as well...)
Seriously? Even if your 8 year old daughter is developing pubic hair that young...what in the hell is she wearing that it makes a difference? I have a hard time imagining that there are thousands of 8 year olds walking around with pubic hair so bad, that swimming suit season is traumatizing for them!
While I have to say, that I have used the promise of a manicure as a bribe to get my daughters to stop biting their nails (which, BTW, it didn't work...they still bite them), the thought of having them waxed because of some crazy "perfection issues" that I have? Insane. I just had my eyebrows waxed today...that is not a pain I'm willing to inflict on my daughters at the tender age of 6.
How sad, that as a society, we push our young girls to look, behave and act in a way that puts them way beyond their years. It's cute that my daughters want to grow up to be like Mommy...but the main focus in that sentence should be - grow up to be like Mommy. They don't need to be Mommy, now.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
For some reason, Ry and Avery decided to get completely decked out in winter gear today, lay on the living room floor and make "snow angels". I told you they could amuse themselves with anything! :)
Not to be left out....Luke went searching for his own winter outfit. I think he did rather well....the purse just completes the ensemble!