Sunday, February 17, 2008

What Would YOUR Sign Say?

Mine would say, "Still hoping and praying".
I cannot imagine how it feels to not be able to conceive your first child. My four children are my whole world and I can't imagine life without them. People may judge me for crying over the fact that we are having a hard time conceiving our 5th child. But, don't assume that you know how it feels to be able to easily conceive and then all of a sudden develop problems. To go from conceiving just by talking about it...to being disappointed for 14 straight months.
No matter how many children you have...one...three...seven...if you still feel like someone is missing from your family...you still have empty arms.

13 comments:

TheVasquez3 said...

oh man...i had never seen that video OR heard that song. but it sure does say it all, doesn't it?

my sign is probably: maybe i waited too long.

all i wanted was a healthy marriage to bring a child into. i thought i was doing the right thing by waiting. now i am 36, maybe all of my eggs are expired. who knows. but i would do ANYTHING to have a child of my own, to know what it is like to have a life growing inside of me, and to hear "Mom" and know they are talking to ME.

i am still hoping and praying too. and Leeann you should never feel bad for wanting more. it's a strange thing to feel like you KNOW someone is up in heaven waiting for you to bring them home.

So. Many. Emotions.

Kellan said...

Amen to your post and what a wonderful video!!!! I just loved that - I've never seen it before and it just broke my heart - but it was so beautiful.

So nice to see you Leeann - thanks for coming by - I've missed you. Have a great Monday - see you soon. Kellan

Pam said...

I cried. I cried. I cried some more. My heartbroke into a million little pieces.

You have ever right to feel sad that you are not getting pregnant. It doesn't matter how many children you have - the pain is the same.

You are such a strong, loving, kind, caring person. Your spirit and love are amazing. I hope you are able to have 40 children- you give me hope for the future of out world.

common mom said...

NObody has the right to judge anyone else for any reason. We had trouble getting prego with our first . . . 2 1/2 years and a couple miscarriages. We both wanted children so badly and couldn't believe it might not happen! We now have 2 beautiful children. You're right - no matter how many you have, if more children is what you want but it's not happening, it's just so heartbreaking.

I'm praying for you and your family!

Sniz said...

I'm so sorry, LeeAnn. One of my good friends struggled with infertility for a few years, then got pregnant, but when she tried again and couldn't get pregnant, the same feelings were back in spades. Even though she'd had a child. She still felt inadequate and angry. I know that it would be easy to look at her and say, she has a child of her own. Isn't that enough? Why is she still feeling this way? That's when I understood how deeply infertility hurts, no matter what the situation. So I understand and hope it happens soon.

BTW, love your new look!

Andrea said...

You said it so well. If YOU feel like a child is missing from your life, it is still a loss to not be able to conceive that child. Nobody should be allowed to judge anyone else's grief.

ps: I have something for you over at my place...

Jen said...

Leeann, I always like this video every time I see it. It's heartbreaking, but brings hope. It's true that no one can judge your grief. We tried for almost 2 years for our first baby and it's heartbreaking when you want it to happen so bad and nothing. You are such an amazing mom and your children are so very blessed to have you. You are a great example of what a mother should be! I hope and pray and new baby is in your future very soon :)

Love your new header :)

Steph said...

I have 2 and we're on our 3rd month of trying for #3 and I KNOW that feeling, that someone is still missing from your family. Like it's just not complete. I will be hoping and praying for you too!

livin with me said...

Why won't the video play for me? Ugh! I'll have to come back tomorrow and try again.

But, we tried for serveral years for Hailey and suffered miscarriages. It just didn't make sense to us WHY we were having such a hard time. I still don't know why. But, I do understand your pain.

bequi said...

I have a friend I almost want to forward this to, but she's been trying for so long to get pregnant I wonder if it would just make her feel worse. She's been trying for over 3 years, with drugs and everything else. They've done tests on her and her husband and no one can figure out why they haven't conceived because everything seems to be working perfectly.

Steph said...

What an awesome video. I love it...thank you for sharing! I don't know about the not being able to conceive part, but had two miscarriages and two surgeries trying to get our daughter here. My thoughts & prayers are with you for #5 getting here soon!

P.S. I think my sign would say...patience pays!

smdew said...

I cried so hard when I watched that video. I know the feelings. We struggled with infertility for years. We got pregnant, made it through the first trimester and had a miscarriage. It was such a painful experience that we never expected to have. After that we kept trying but fnally after two years had McKenzie. What a joy! And after trying for almost another year we are now expecting our second baby. I wish you luck and peace as you try. If you need to vent or cry, I am here!

Rachel said...

Wow. Depressing.

I've been praying for you. You have soo much love in your heart and are a blessing to everyone.